How do you feel when you do something special or important?

In my life there are many experiences that I have done that are special or important. The special or important time for me is when I have to do something in public or with many people watching such as when i gave the speech in the assembly , singing in front of a large audience and being the leader for something.
In secondary school I have been in the music band and I’m not the professional singer,so Ihave never got used to standing in front of a large audience. At the end of the year the music band had to present the concert, so I had to be singing in the concert. There were my friends that have to sing in the concert too. When it wasn’t my turn to sing I felt normal and didn’t feel excited or nervous, but when it got to my turn I couldn’t sit still, my hands , my legs and my mouth shook because I was very nervous . I remember that when I was in Mathayom3 I had to sing the song that the King wrote. Before I got to the stage, Sompoi had to hold my hand and said something to give me the strength to make me feel less nervous. So then I felt a little bit better and have enough power to walk up to the stage. Anyway I still felt nervous and excited, those feelings took away my confidence and it took away my concentration in the song. When I sang, it came out very bad, wrong notes and wrong rhythm. I thought that the feeling of nervous and excitement made me do the special or important things badly, it covered e ability that I have. Even I knew that if I felt nervous or excited before I do something, it will take away my confidenceI still feel nervous and excited before i do something special or important

Culture

“Culture” is a big word that most people think that they understand. But if we asked them what your country's culture is, how would they answer that question. At first, I thought that I understood the word “Culture”. But Peter shown me the presentation of Tata Young music Video and he asked him if this is Thai culture? I was silent because I didn't know what to answer him. Tata Young is a Thai person, but how could we say that Tata young is not doing the right Thai culture because she wore sexy,little clothes. Peter told us about at the first time he came to Thailand, he went in to the village and saw a woman wore a bra walking around and no one really cared about it because it’s what normally people do. I knew that there are differences between Tata young and woman in the old village. So we can’t say it easily that is what the culture is. But I do know that Culture is the thing that can change by the time, the society and the people. It’s not the thing that will last forever and never change. Actually culture is always changing, but we just weren't really interested about it very much. In my opinion now, I think that the culture is a tradition and activities that people think that is the right thing to do. It’s not the thing that we receive from other culture in the world.
Last Saturday I went to Kao San Road and interviewed the foreigners and asked the question about the everyday activities in their country. First question that I asked is about wearing the shoes in the house. In Thailand we normally take our shoes off before get it to the house, in the countries like Switzerland, Canada, Ireland, Germany and Holland they wore the shoes in the house or maybe they wore slippers. I think that just only the everyday activities are different, so there are many things that are different between countries's cultures. So the best thing to do is not say what culture is right or wrong because different cultures have different ideas of what is right or what is wrong.

What society expects of ME

I always hear my parents saying “concentrate when you are learning at school, be a good girl” something like that. I’m sure that everyone will have heard of these sentences. All parents want their child to be good, be perfect and successful and that because they are our parents, they’re always worrying about us. Even if we are 30 or50 years old we will always be their little son or daughter.
There are many people that expects things from me. So I would give an example and talk about my parents expecting things from me. My parents expect me to be a good girl, be a nice girl, and be a smart girl and everything that will be good for me. I know that they love me, but sometimes I have my own idea and sometime they just think differently from me. I’m angry when they do not allow me to do things that I want to do. Like when I asked them if I can go to a concert with my friends, they have always said no. Of course the reason is that it is too dangerous for a girl to go concert. So I have missed lots of concerts that I wanted to go to.
My parents want me to get in the good university like Chulalongkorn University, Sillapakorn University or Thammasart University. All those universities are the top universities in Thailand. That’s made me have a lot of pressure. I’m afraid that I can’t do like what they expect of me. My mum want me to get in Hotel management at Sillapakorn University. It's not that I don’t like hotel management, but I’m just not sure about myself yet. I also want to go with Interior design and something about art. So I was getting a little bit worried about that. Anyway I will find the way out.We all know that parents love their children, but in my opinion as a child I think that sometimes parents should let go of their children. Let the children decide what they want to do and parents just give them the suggestion, not just decid everything for them. If they have done the wrong thing, they will learn from their experience. So don’t pressure your children and give a chance for them instead.